I Do Not Forgive Easily

 They say forgiveness is a part of life,

But they never said I had to.

Words still cut me like a knife,

I never forgot what was said.

Why do we forgive those who do not deserve it?

Do I honestly believe people will change?

I guess I will just end up throwing another fit.

I find it hard to forgive anyone now,

It seems gossip is all anyone does anymore.

But I have made myself a vow,

I will not care what they say.

I am sure they still talk about me,

It is not like I do not see them anymore.

But honestly I will not forgive thee,

Some do not deserve it.

I am sure if I forgave them my life would be different.

I am sure it would get better for a while,

But I will not be that ignorant.

I will not crash again.

They say forgiveness is the key to happiness,

But I think that it is not true.

Forgiveness will lead to nastiness,

When I forgive them repeatedly.

Forgiveness is something that has to be earned,

And I do not believe anything has changed.

Maybe someday people will finally learn,

I do not forgive easily.